Sunday, October 25, 2009
Hiroshima weekend
Life is moving on as expected. Work is still kicking my butt everyday. The weather has gotten colder and I have gotten sick, again. As my grieving period ended and everyday routines getting established again, I looked towards Hiroshima for a new start.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Moving on
Its been really hard trying to move on and getting myself back to "normal" life. I've been doing things like going out and trying to clear my head and do something fun. Places that I went to in the past 2 weeks that I don't usually go or have not been to were Gunma-ken and Chiba-ken. Every time I return home though, I always expect Dondon to be right there and I end up getting emotional again no matter how much fun I had earlier. I have to realize that from now on my "normal" life will never return to the life I used to know 2.5 weeks before. That aspect right there depresses me whenever I think about it. It serves as a constant reminder to me that life can change in an instant and I should never take each day for granted and be thankful for what I have now.
Going back to distractions, one thing I did do this past weekend that I haven't done in a while was eat sushi. Its honestly been a while since I picked up a piece of raw fish at a restaurant. I think the last time I ate sushi was in the middle of September, at a new kaiten sushi place not to far from where I live. The cool feature that I never saw there was that they had a laser counter to count the dishes after you ate them and transferred the data into a hard ticket that you used to pay with at the front. All the other times I've been to kaiten sushi, the worker would come by and manually count which plates I had eaten and then write everything on a paper ticket. I thought the automatic counter was cool until my sushi experience yesterday. The place yesterday had touch panel LCD screens at each seat where you would order what you wanted. Moments later, the chef would bring out the desired freshly cut up raw fish on top of vinegary rice. It was pretty cool. I felt like I was in a scene of "Back to the future Part 2".
Going back to distractions, one thing I did do this past weekend that I haven't done in a while was eat sushi. Its honestly been a while since I picked up a piece of raw fish at a restaurant. I think the last time I ate sushi was in the middle of September, at a new kaiten sushi place not to far from where I live. The cool feature that I never saw there was that they had a laser counter to count the dishes after you ate them and transferred the data into a hard ticket that you used to pay with at the front. All the other times I've been to kaiten sushi, the worker would come by and manually count which plates I had eaten and then write everything on a paper ticket. I thought the automatic counter was cool until my sushi experience yesterday. The place yesterday had touch panel LCD screens at each seat where you would order what you wanted. Moments later, the chef would bring out the desired freshly cut up raw fish on top of vinegary rice. It was pretty cool. I felt like I was in a scene of "Back to the future Part 2".
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Grieving
Its been about a week since I last saw my best friend asking for belly rubs and lying next to me while I am working or watching TV. The grieving process has been really difficult... too difficult in fact. We had a funeral service for him and he was cremated. It was really hard to see all that, but with a family member regardless of species I would do anything for.
They say its best to remember the happy times I had with him. I did smile and laugh a bit when I looked at his old photos and videos that were taken throughout his life but I eventually broke down when I realized how he isn't here anymore. Even going out and trying to distract myself has not been an easy task. The cafe that he had the accident is located downstairs from my apartment and every part of the apartment complex and its green surroundings were all part of his walking course.
My life after my mom passed away and my new life in Japan always included Dondon. It breaks my heart and soul that he isn't around and that I lost him so early and suddenly. I tried my best to do everything to keep him healthy and happy so we would could share a long life together. I don't think I'll ever get over it, but I know it will take a while before I can adjust to it. My home isn't my home anymore without him in it.
They say its best to remember the happy times I had with him. I did smile and laugh a bit when I looked at his old photos and videos that were taken throughout his life but I eventually broke down when I realized how he isn't here anymore. Even going out and trying to distract myself has not been an easy task. The cafe that he had the accident is located downstairs from my apartment and every part of the apartment complex and its green surroundings were all part of his walking course.
My life after my mom passed away and my new life in Japan always included Dondon. It breaks my heart and soul that he isn't around and that I lost him so early and suddenly. I tried my best to do everything to keep him healthy and happy so we would could share a long life together. I don't think I'll ever get over it, but I know it will take a while before I can adjust to it. My home isn't my home anymore without him in it.
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