Grieving

Its been about a week since I last saw my best friend asking for belly rubs and lying next to me while I am working or watching TV. The grieving process has been really difficult... too difficult in fact. We had a funeral service for him and he was cremated. It was really hard to see all that, but with a family member regardless of species I would do anything for.

They say its best to remember the happy times I had with him. I did smile and laugh a bit when I looked at his old photos and videos that were taken throughout his life but I eventually broke down when I realized how he isn't here anymore. Even going out and trying to distract myself has not been an easy task. The cafe that he had the accident is located downstairs from my apartment and every part of the apartment complex and its green surroundings were all part of his walking course.

My life after my mom passed away and my new life in Japan always included Dondon. It breaks my heart and soul that he isn't around and that I lost him so early and suddenly. I tried my best to do everything to keep him healthy and happy so we would could share a long life together. I don't think I'll ever get over it, but I know it will take a while before I can adjust to it. My home isn't my home anymore without him in it.